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Young Adult Fiction Sexual Abuse

Until Today

by (author) Pam Fluttert

Second Story Press
Initial publish date
Sep 2013
Sexual Abuse, Emotions & Feelings
  • Paperback / softback

    Publish Date
    Sep 2013
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  • eBook

    Publish Date
    Sep 2013
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Recommended Age, Grade, and Reading Levels

  • Age: 13 to 18
  • Grade: 8 to 12
  • Reading age: 13 to 18


Kat is alone with a secret she doesn’t want to keep, but can’t risk telling. A victim of longtime sexual abuse at the hands of her family’s trusted friend, Kat is torn between trying to protect herself and safeguarding her little sister, whom she fears might be next. With no one to turn to, Kat keeps a secret journal where she writes the truth about everything that has been going on since she was a little girl. But now the journal is missing, and Kat’s secret is about to unravel.

About the author

Pam Fluttert lives in New Hamburg, Ontario with her husband and two daughters. In addition to writing and drawing in her spare time, she works at the University of Waterloo. Pam spends as much time as possible with her family, two dogs, and two horses.

Pam Fluttert's profile page


  • Short-listed, 2014/2015 Stellar Book Award Finalist (B.C. Teen Readers' Choice Award)

Editorial Reviews

Kat's emotional confusion, and the difficulty of turning from victim into survivor, is well portrayed...this novel will be a useful tool to open dialogue on a sensitive issue.

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(Fluttert) keeps Kat’s trauma and her reluctance to speak at the center of her tale. The character of the abuser, Greg, always in control, stands out as highly realistic.

Kirkus Reviews

It's fiction based on Fluttert's own experience, written from the victim's perspective to help kids, parents and educators understand childhood sexual abuse. The story also empowers victims to take control...and explain how the crime of sexual abuse can happen, especially at a time when kids are so connected and open about their personal lives.

Doug Coxson

a work that can be recommended by guidance and counselling staff to students in this terrible situation.

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