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I Thought He Was Dead

A Spiritual Memoir

by (author) Ralph Benmergui

Wolsak and Wynn Publishers Ltd.
Initial publish date
Sep 2021
Entertainment & Performing Arts, Religious, Jewish
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    Sep 2021
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When Ralph Benmergui discovered he was literally hours away from a deadly heart attack he realized his life had changed. He was entering the autumn of his life, as he saw it, and he was being dragged into it by his heels. What follows this awakening is a funny, profound and generous look at where he came from – from his childhood as the youngest son of Moroccan immigrants, to his experiences during the early years of Yuk Yuk's, to his long and storied career at CBC and much more – to where he is now, with stents in his arteries, having survived two bouts of cancer, hosting a much-loved podcast and with a practice in Hashpa'ah: Jewish Spiritual Direction. Along the way Benmergui looks critically at what it means to grow old in our society and challenges the reader to push against the stereotypes, to find a new purpose, and to claim the title and role of elder in a society that demands we strive to stay "forever young."

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Contributor Notes

Ralph Benmergui is best known as a TV and radio personality. First at the CBC for over twenty years and then at Jazz FM with his morning show Benmergui in the Morning. Born in Tangiers, Morocco, Ralph and his family arrived in Canada in the late fifties settling in Toronto. Ralph has had an eclectic career. Stand-up comic, singer in a band, national media, then government communications. Executive Advisor to the President at Sheridan College and along the way seeking out and becoming becoming an ordained Spiritual Director.

Editorial Reviews

"Ralph Benmergui's book is a gift to all of us who, like him, are in the 'autumn of our lives' and to anyone who is planning to someday get there. He writes with the timing of a performer, the compassion of a loving friend and the wisdom of a different kind of rabbi. Ralph asks how we can bring our wisdom to the table – this book is, in part, his personal answer to that question." – Kathleen Wynne, MPP

"A compelling mixture of memoir, reflection and philosophy, this is a startlingly honest and important book." – Rev. Michael Coren, columnist and bestselling author